Note: This blog is mostly a vent post and future plans on where I plan to carry this account and my life. If you aren't really interested, just know that I am back and I'm going to try to create and share stuff once again! You don't have to read this, it won't hurt my feelings.

Where I've been.

To start off, hello. I'm Blue Ghost. I'm a 21 year old male. My interests are writing, art, animation, music, games, just creation as a whole. I love Human creation. I think that shit is cool.

You'll notice that I haven't been doing anything in months. Looking at my latest blog post, that was 2023. We are in 2024 and approaching autumn. Really, the latest thing I've done was be a part of the "Loss" Collab!, and that was in August 2023.

So, where the hell have you been, Ghost?

I would like to say "I've been busy working on a big project!" or just casually say I was busy, but that's not the truth. In truth, I've been at home, sat on my ass, looking through all kinds of drama on social media, playing video games, creating characters I will never use, and daydreaming about creating something great while not working on it at all. I've been lazy. I've been procrastinating. I've been wasting years.

Newgrounds has never left my mind. It's always been in the back of my thoughts. As I sit, I think about all the stuff I created on Newgrounds. It wasn't a lot or impressive, but I was happy I created stuff and posted it. I'm still so proud that my writing was part of the Newgrounds Voice Acting Collaboration 2022. I wanted to come back to Newgrounds with a banger, with something to be proud of to publish so I can go "Oh yeah, I'm back".

But it didn't turn out like that.

I'm still sitting here with nothing to show. No stories, art pieces, or audio. I feel as if I don't come back with something bigger than I would waste everyone's time.

Things are flying by. More projects are being made. People are still creating wonderful pieces, and I'm still here daydreaming about the things I wish to share instead of doing it. It feels as if I can't create something and not because I dislike it. Is it because I procrastinate? Is my short attention span really that bad? Has sitting back and consuming what media feeds me everyday stopping me? Honestly, I don't know what to blame, nor should I blame anything.

I don't want to sit around anymore.

As the months (well, year) of me sitting back, listening to music and daydreaming until it's time for bed go by, things have been happening around me. I've lost parts inside of me (surgery), I see people I look up to retire or do something horrible, I hear stories of bad things happening to good people.

I try to use creation as a means to escape this horrible stuff to not only keep my happiness but in hopes to keep others happy as well, just something to take the mind off reality for a moment. But now, I've been failing to do that.

Something happened recently, something that has me sitting around for the past week thinking back on everything and thinking ahead. A friend I once knew passed away. A car crash tragically took their life. I won't say who out of respect and privacy. It hits hard for me as I knew them when I was young in middle school and highschool. I still remember talking to them on the bus, lightly poking fun at them and bumping shoulders together. While we didn't talk much after that, seeing them from time to time was always fun. Now, their life is taken away. They only lived for 18 years. That is too young. No one should die young. That's horrible.

A day goes by hearing of the news as I sit in my chair, watching another drama video of some dumb media thing to take my mind off of it, I began to think. "If I had shown them my creations, would they have liked it?" Of course! That's a silly question. But then I think, "but they haven't seen the projects I've been working on for years."

There are three things I fear.

Time, Memories, and Death

Time is catching up to not only me, but others. I could start to lose all of my memories I have saved in my head, stories I want to tell, projects I want to share. If I don't share them soon, death will take me and others with it.

I would like for people to hear, see, or play my stories. I want to create for people so they can enjoy themselves from reality for a little while before they pass on. I want them to see what I created, I want people (mainly those close to me) to be proud of what I made. How will I do that if I sit around letting time fly by? We are losing time sitting around doing nothing!

It's started to motivate me. That, and other projects I start to see are made with passion.

I make this post to remind myself to continue working and to share what I will create.

I love Newgrounds. I believe it to be the best creator's space there is. I want to keep making things and share them with you all. I hope, in making this post, it will push me to fall back. Something I can create and be proud of. I will finish what I want to share before time catches up to us all.

Thank you for reading this blog. I hope this will inspire you to create something as well.

For this part of the blog, I am going to be sharing the projects I've been day dreaming and working on. This involves stories and games. This will just be me talking about the projects, their description and what they are, as well as plan how I'm going to do it.

For now, my first plan is to create a small little game, something to get me starting on learning to create games. I'll be using the Godot Engine but may change up. My first game idea is just making a purposely bad game that is more of shit posting about modern games and media.

Once I get myself familiar with writing and game making, I plan to create a few projects.

Sister Elemiah

Elemiah The Ghost Hunter plans to be the first semi big game. Sister Elemiah is an angel secretly sent down to protect people from ghost attacks. Inspired by House of the Dead, you will control Sister Elemiah as she goes from house to house, shooting these mischievous ghosts back down to hell! This game I plan on putting on Newgrounds; a small simple project.

The Bedtime Monster Stories

Bedtime Monster Stories is a collection of horror stories told every month. This project I plan to put on Wattpad, as Newgrounds doesn't have a decent writing section, something I hope does get added in the near future. For now, the Writer's Community will have to do on Newgrounds. Every month, I will try to focus on a new fear. The series will start on October 31th. The first story will focus on the fear of replacement, oooooo.

These are smaller projects I hope to complete in the remaining 2024. As for the others, these are much longer projects I hope to achieve in my life. I don't talk about them so as to not get people, but this is my blog and I will say whatever I want! (And also to get it off my chest)

Cross Vile

Cross Vile is a planned RPG game inspired by Fear and Hunger. Cross Vile is a world of cruelty and evil. A group made of 8 people (The Barbarian, Knight, Rouge, Archer, Druid, Healer, Wizard, and Witch) are tasked by the Kingdom of Phryadha to destroy a root known as The Creeping Varor as it sucks the life from one of the Kingdom's towns. Select your classes and seek to destroy the root how you wish. You will find that acting unforgiving and heartless will make your journey to The Creeping Varor easy.

Arcana Duelers

Arcana Duelers is a planned fighting game. A world plagued with resource war, mistrust, and magic, scientist start their project on creating a tool to stop the endless hunger issues and consent fights. The oblivion stone, one that'll give power to the user, able to creating anything from nothing. Behind the scenes, the lead scientist, Noah Teyvat, began to grow suspicious of betrayal from the others; plans to use this tool as a weapon. Noah stole the stone and went into hiding from the world. Now, 20 fighters seek to find this stone by any means. They earn the name Arcana Duelers for their relationship with the Major Arcanas. Select characters like an American cowboy with prosthetic legs, a Japanese ninja assassin cyborg, a city raccoon brawler, or a smoking Russian fallen angel as they fight their way past every dueler to reach Noah and that stone, accomplishing their dreams.

Pyrinas Saga

A story that has stuck with me since childhood. Pyrinas Saga is a book series that has been in the making for years. It's a big series as it is a big world with many species, animals, lands, and stories. Pyrinas Saga begins with one of the few remaining Humans, Lucas Wheeler, as he travels across the world his people never taught him. Confused by the chaotic world he was sheltered from, he seeks out to find his brother, Henry Wheeler, to go back home and escape a war consuming the world. However, once you've been exposed to something you can't unsee nor escape as Lucas begins to become part of the sage. He will soon find himself wrapped into the war within this fantasy world to free itself from the Kingdom of Portum, as well as learning hidden secrets that were buried in these lands a long time ago.

For those who've been reading this all, thank you. It really does mean a lot that someone took their time to read and listen to me venting and ranting about my plans. I want to make something great for you; I will be putting as much effort as I can into my creations. I hope that we can inspire others to start creating as well.

Now, I'm going to quit yapping and start doing what I said I wanted to do.

Have a good day/night.

(Here is a bonus image I found. On that wizard shit.)